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I bought high, black boots. They look just like the ones that Madonna wore on Hung Up music video, Sticky&Sweet-, Re-Invention - and Confessions Tour. The boots can look sluttish or stylish. That is to say, I may look like a ***CENSORED*** or a stylish young lady. To me Madonna has never looked like a slut when she was wearing the boots. Today, I was standing on a bus stop. There were a few grandmas. Some of them stared me longer than usual. Some middle-aged ladies gazed me as well. I was wondering what they were thinking about. Did they see me as a whore or a piece of modern art? I have no idea. I gently smiled at them. I wonder why people feel so intimidated and frightened when talking about sex. Is sex inferior to them? I bet they enjoy sex as much as normal peopledo, or if they don't, they must have some mental problems (a different lifestyle or such) with it. I don't understand why these less sexual people judge Madonna's provocative attitude. Sex is as universal as music. We all do it. We all have sex, we all enjoy music as well. I'm very keen on a Finnish comic called Fingerpori. I have never really liked any comic book, but this one really makes me laugh. Fingerpori's humor comes from sex, Finnish weird language and everyday life jokes. Pervert jokes for short. A reader's feedback says "This is so INFERIOR!". If we think about the feedback, the reader must consider all the Fingerpori's fans as uncivilized people. I consider the feedback giver as a boring (funny, too) person. Madonna's performances and presence are often considered unrespectful and mediocre. Does that make me a person who has a bad taste? Or the other way around, does the comment make the feedback giver a dull person? People judge each other for everything, because we are all different. It's just staggering how there are a few things that strongly relates us, but then again, makes us angry and scared (music, sex, religion). Like I have said, we all live the same religion. We all have same sex - it just varies a little, because some like it some other way.

We took 790 pictures of me being a Madonna fan in 3 hours. How does that sound?! Great, but I have no idea of how does the photographs look like nor how the photographer is going to realize this project. I'm excited about how is he going to edit the images, too. I guess it will take a few months to complete the project. It's funny how my part took only three hours and now, after the photographing session, we can say the project has started. The editing and choosing the right pics will be the hardest part I think. I had great time photographing the issue! I think the people who passed by during the shooting thought I looked like a little slut which made me laugh even more. I'm finishing the Madonna cover album for Christmas. The cd will include some 15 tracks. I think that is quite a lot of songs! I took part to a Madonna competition in Madonna Icon Fanclub. It was about writing an essay on five Madonna songs which have influenced you most. The songs had to be chosen on the Celebration hit collection. It would be just amazing if the Madonna Icon crew picked my essay to be published on the next Madonna Icon magazine... It would be again one dream come true! Can you imagine all the craziest M fans reading your essay all over the world on the official M magazine? I can't even think about that... Not to even mention if Madonna would read it... Oh gosh! Ok so my essay goes like this: When I first heard that we are going to have an Idols competition in my school, I knew that this would be my chance to shake the school’s old-fashioned boundaries. I decided I would perform Like A Virgin the way that Madonna does. My music teacher wondered why I did not move my body at all during the rehearsals in which I replied ”Don’t worry, I will release my inner Madonna on the stage”. She encouraged me not to care about the audience, which I guess you know I did. I was new in the school so I did not have any friends. I was all alone, but Madonna made me feel like I had nothing to lose. I got on the stage in a Like A Virgin-dress and hair. There I was lying, ripping my dress and groaning on the floor. I still do not feel ashamed about it. I just remember how someone later told me that she had heard someone in the audience saying, ”Oh my god, she is hot!” I was not a self-confident fourteen-year-old girl; I was (still am!) a little girl who really loved Madonna and the way She expresses Herself. The second song I performed in the Idols competition was Frozen. I was wearing a black dress I had made myself. I do not think the dress looked like a joke, because I was quite gifted in handicrafts. Frozen was the first Madonna song I remember listening to continuously. During the Frozen performance I was moving my hands like Madonna does in the music video. At that moment I felt a little stupid, because all I could remember about the choreography was Madonna moving her hands like that. In the middle of the show I collapsed on the floor and peeped the audience through my long hair. I believe that must have looked funny, but surprisingly I did not see anyone giggling. Since that I have had a status of a Madonna freak in that school. When I first watched the Hung Up music video, I knew that I had to look the same as M does. I bought long boots, new jeans, a glittery belt and a green top. I walked on the streets of Helsinki and listened to Hung Up so proudly that I believe people must have been thinking, ”Who the hell does she think she is?” Again, I got a lot of self-confidence through M. I think it is so bizarre how Madonna motivates and gives energy to millions of people. My theory is that some people get happy by making good food, some people feel great by listening to/ buying / experiencing Madonna. Madonna makes me happy in more ways than one. I have seen Hung Up live twice. Both times I was about to explode, because it is my favorite Madonna song. The lyrics are meaningful, especially “Time goes by so slowly for those who wait, Those who run seem to have all the fun”. That sentence is my motto, because I hate people who do not dare to live their dreams or express themselves. People would be more interesting if they dared to say what they like and did what they feel. It’s impressive how Madonna wrote the lyrics to Hung Up in 5-10 minutes. How come Madonna wrote Miles Away exactly when my boyfriend was spending a gap year in New Zealand, 30 000km away from me? That felt supernatural. I felt as if I had a spiritual connection with Madonna. Nevertheless, I do not agree with the lyrics that we are at our best when we are miles away. I am the best with Madonna and my boyfriend when we are as close as possible On the other hand, I understand that Madonna’s relationship status was a bit more different than mine. Something funny happened on the day the Celebration hit collection was published in Finland. I went to the department store called Stockmann and if you bought the cd , you could also receive the Celebration poster. As I had ordered my copy from Amazon, I didn't want to buy it at Stockmann just to get the poster. I gave the salesman a self-confident gaze and opened my mouth. I told him that on that day I really didn’t have the strength to tell him why in fact I should have the poster for free, but I could reassure that I am the maddest Madonna fan he has ever met. After discussing for 5min why should I get the poster he gave the poster saying, "Let's keep it a secret". I was so excited! The salesman made my day. Not only because he gave the poster, but he also promised to give me the Celebration t-shirt he was wearing. Unbelievable! I proved to myself that I could have as much silent, dumbfounding power as Madonna has in her daily life if I really tried. I could get people get rid off their clothes for my addiction, how cool is that!? After all this self-confidence Madonna has given me, it has been nothing else but a CELEBRATION! Thanks to my English teacher who kindly corrected my bad grammar!

I got out of the buying-Madonna-stuff-without-a-break feeling/thing! Now I'm having a comfortable pause and concentrating on other things. I still record M covers and follow daily news, but right now there is something more interesting than dedicating my whole time to M: Lady GaGa. Her attitude and look is so close to M that I don't feel sad about giving some extra attention to GaGa. I know this will be again another one month romance that will wash away... I may have some "one night stands", but Madonna never looses her status. Every time M launches a new single, tour or book, I feel little distressed, because I know I have to go and buy it. I have to have a Madonna money account, isn't that just weird? Some money put aside for the woman who has a fortune estimated over 400 million dollars. Let's take the picture discs (vinyl's and LP's): my first picture disc was 4 Minutes. I bought a LP player to play those recordings and noticed that the quality of the picture discs just sucks. Madonna sounds more man-like than usually and the song does not play perfectly. I admit that the discs look great, but if that is all, do I really have to support them? I have now 4-5 picture discs and none of them play without a problem. Has someone noticed this problem too? I live in a love and hate relationship with Madonna competitions. I have taken part to many of them and had this particular problem two times - the problem of not reading the rules well enough. I have failed two times and those regretful times have always been big: winning tickets to Paris to see her and winning a Celebration ultra rare box set (worth approximately 3000 dollars). I won the Paris competition twice, but did not get the chance to join the trip as I was underage (it was written on the rules with a tiny front, how very kind). On the Celebration competition I didn't read the following sentence: give your answer after the "toot"-voice. I wish I could learn the lesson now, because I don't need to experience this feeling anymore. I just read the new Rolling Stones which has Madonna on its cover. The interviewer Austin Scaggs asks if the Material Girl feels materialistic. Madonnas chosen words are: "I'm resourceful, and if I ended up in a log cabin in the middle of the forest, that would work too. These things are not mandatory for my happiness". I believe that Madonna would not honestly be able to live in a forest in a random cottage. I mean... has she ever even tried to live that kind of life after moving to NYC for the first time? I like the idea of Maddy being happy without the Frida paintings and luxurious houses around the world, but would it really be possible? Her religion teaches her to think that way and I really like the message, but let's face it: she is the most famous woman in the world etc... Does this "I could live in a forest" sound at all unrealistic in your ear?

I got out of the buying-Madonna-stuff-without-a-break feeling/thing! Now I'm having a comfortable pause and concentrating on other things. I still record M covers and follow daily news, but right now there is something more interesting than dedicating my whole time to M: Lady GaGa. Her attitude and look is so close to M that I don't feel sad about giving some extra attention to GaGa. I know this will be again another one month romance that will wash away... I may have some "one night stands", but Madonna never looses her status. Every time M launches a new single, tour or book, I feel little distressed, because I know I have to go and buy it. I have to have a Madonna money account, isn't that just weird? Some money put aside for the woman who has a fortune estimated over 400 million dollars. Let's take the picture discs (vinyl's and LP's): my first picture disc was 4 Minutes. I bought a LP player to play those recordings and noticed that the quality of the picture discs just sucks. Madonna sounds more man-like than usually and the song does not play perfectly. I admit that the discs look great, but if that is all, do I really have to support them? I have now 4-5 picture discs and none of them play without a problem. Has someone noticed this problem too? I live in a love and hate relationship with Madonna competitions. I have taken part to many of them and had this particular problem two times - the problem of not reading the rules well enough. I have failed two times and those regretful times have always been big: winning tickets to Paris to see her and winning a Celebration ultra rare box set (worth approximately 3000 dollars). I won the Paris competition twice, but did not get the chance to join the trip as I was underage (it was written on the rules with a tiny front, how very kind). On the Celebration competition I didn't read the following sentence: give your answer after the "toot"-voice. I wish I could learn the lesson now, because I don't need to experience this feeling anymore. I just read the new Rolling Stones which has Madonna on its cover. The interviewer Austin Scaggs asks if the Material Girl feels materialistic. Madonnas chosen words are: "I'm resourceful, and if I ended up in a log cabin in the middle of the forest, that would work too. These things are not mandatory for my happiness". I believe that Madonna would not honestly be able to live in a forest in a random cottage. I mean... has she ever even tried to live that kind of life after moving to NYC for the first time? I like the idea of Maddy being happy without the Frida paintings and luxurious houses around the world, but would it really be possible? Her religion teaches her to think that way and I really like the message, but let's face it: she is the most famous woman in the world etc... Does this "I could live in a forest" sound at all unrealistic in your ear?

I am so happy. I didn't know that I love posing for the camera (almost) as much as Madonna does. One guy in my old school is making a project with me about my addiction. He is trying to capture the Madonna fanaticism into camera and make some 20 photographs. I was little surprised he choose to make this project of ME. This sort of project is only allowed to the students who are on their last year in high school. The project/diploma is very useful for those who try to get to study e.g. photographing, media, art or filming, because it can give some extra points in the matriculation. I don't know if the guy knows how flattered I am about him choosing this theme. I couldn't think of some BOY willing to shoot this kind of thing, because not many boys like Madonna. On the whole, I felt surprised that someone is interested in the addiction theme. There are many other things people can be addicted to. Let's take drugs. My drug is healthy, exciting and inspiring. I was little insecure about the project at first, because I would not definitely want to co-operate with some half-motivated high school student. If it is about Madonna, you have to be 100% in. I felt so excited when the guy encouraged me to "release my inner Madonna". I felt natural and happy when someone was shooting me. Should I think about this when choosing a profession? I was chosen to study culture producing. I won't be exactly making culture: movies, music or paintings. I will arrange festivals, exhibitions and social events. I am not becoming the main attraction, I will be the person who made it possible. I am not certain if I am doing the right thing, but we'll see what happens. I will show some pictures when the photographs are ready. I think it sounds difficult to film addiction in still pictures. I thought it would be easier to describe fanaticism in movie form ("moving picture" as we say), but this is an interesting experience. I will just have to wait for the result, because this is not my project - I am just a muse or model, whatsoever.

I have decided on which side I am when talking about the younger M fans' discussions. I guess I am that old-fashioned that I can't listen to those younger Madge fans even if I try... The problem is not that they are younger or that they admire Maddy. The problem skulks behind their comments. "Madonna's songs and tours are so cool no matter I don't know all of her songs, but at least I know many<3<3<3<3<3<3333" I know that I have been a younger fan too. The sensitiveness bothers me - I need to analyze and compare Madonna stuff... When I received my SEX book, I was in France as an exchange student. We ordered the book through French Ebay which my host father used continuously. I told the father that I would buy it for 40-50e on condition that he wouldn't open the package when it arrives. We won the auction and of course he opened it when it arrived. I was speechless. How did he dare? Well obviously he didn't know what the book means to me. He half raped my soul. I didn't want to take the chance to explain him what he had just done, because he wasn't that kind of guy who listens to emotional excuses. Finally I got the SEX book which is the target of ALL Madonna fans. I had read the book already so I concentrated on admiring the high quality of the material and pictures. I felt special. I treated the book as a mother treats her child. Or then not, because it was in my suitcase, secured all alone behind a number code. Nowadays, the book is in my bookshelf among my other M books. I have told my mother not to touch the books, not particularly the SEX, because if I mentioned the name of the book, it would arouse too much of curiosity. What a weird thing that that word never loses its attractiveness! I still can't name my favorite Madonna memorabilia. I know it would be an autograph if I had one. It's interesting what people could do for certain things. I remember my friends asking me if I would kiss the school's ugliest boy's ass to get a Madonna concert ticket. That is very nasty and dirty in a dirty way, not dirty in a sexual way. Hah! I saw a Madonna's manager's taken photo on the internet where a fan was wearing a t-shirt telling "Would f*ck for Madonna". How about that? I'm happy that not many people have realized to get benefits on that way. Hah I can see already some headlines saying "Trading sex to Madonna tickets - legal or illegal?". I know there was that kind of a situation in 2001 when Madonna was on tour. A radio reporter was offering a ticket to M's concert for sex. He got what he wanted and the other person went to see Madonna. This is an interesting phenomenon that proves how crazy people can be. A truck driver blurted out to me in Madonna's Helsinki concert that "Madonna is not THAT great" when I hurried to the concert area. I was just wondering "oh, if he only knew..." By the way, my Madonna cover recordings are already this far: www.drownedworld.skyrock.com ! (This text also in my blog in http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com )

When Madonna performed in Helsinki on August 2009, I had many discussions with her fans on the spot. I find it interesting that there are different levels among the fans. I remember thinking few years ago that I am the greatest Madonna fan ever in Finland, but unfortunately I still didn't know what I was talking about. I still don't. No one does. People qualify the word "fan" in different ways. On Icon Madonna site someone listed the features the most addicted Madonna should have: - You must have the standard, deluxe, vinyl, double vinyl, mexian promo dj only import etc of any new record, single or release - People ring you when Walmart has red wool/string on sale (Kabbalah-thing) - When you walk into 2nd hand record shops, the owner automatically knows to show you all the new Madonna arrivals - Your whole "coming out to your family dinner", was synchronized to M's best ballads, starting with "You'll See", "Live To Tell" and ending with "Gone" - We hate Sandra Bernhard, Sean Penn, Guy Ritchie, Warren Beatty & Christopher Ciccone, but we love Gwyneth Paltrow, Rosie O'Donnell, Liz Smith and Stella McCartne - You end very sms, email & letter with "Love & Light" or, " )I( " - You sit up in bed and argue with your boyfriend as to why (your queen) Madonna is soooo much better than (his queen) Janet - No one in your family appreciates their "Raising Malawi" sponsorship gift certificate in their Christmas Stockings - You thought "Who's That Girl" was a classic, "Swept Away" was all Guy's fault and "TNBT" was really good (LOL!!!) - You want to father your f@g hags child, just so you can call it Madonna, Rocco or Lourdes and have "Like a Prayer" playing at the Baptism I cut some listings off, because I thought it was too long and I don't want people to get tired with it. However, the list sounds like a disease to me! I guess I am not even half infected... I have made a list from A to G on how people (=my friends) should act when I go to see Madonna concert or see something M related (such as her handprints in London). I want to share the list, because I know it makes people laugh, but actually I am serious with it. I know it may look funny as I spend hours sitting on someone's handprints or walking back and forth in front of a random gym. Here we go: A) No extra talk in needed - one should choose her/his words strictly, I need my own space - one should not come too close, C) I need time, D) one shouldn't touch anything without my permission, E) one shouldn't ask to move to another place, F) one shouldn't take pictures of the target without my permission, G) one shouldn't comment my moves/what I do/how I act on the spot. There is one person who has followed my orders without failing and that is my best friend. My boyfriend is always rushing from one place to another... He doesn't get that spending-time-in-front-of-a-gym-in-London thing as we could be doing something cooler... I get that point too, but... Anyway, now when I look myself back in the time I can wonder there were people who thought "she doesn't know what she's talking about" or "she still hasn't reached this/that level". I got this feeling in Helsinki that I know something that someone doesn't. I guess someone judges me now as an egoist, but this is just my opinion and feeling. I was not saying that I am high and respect me... I know it is hard to begin to idolize and admire someone/something deeply, because people don't take you seriously. I am the admin of a Madonna group on a Finnish Facebook-like site called IRC-Galleria. There are over 1000 people in the group and surprisingly the youngest members (from 13 to 15 years) are keeping the discussions rolling. There was a small fight about why people don't take the young fans seriously. I don't know whether to be for or against. I guess I am not either. I understand the both views. Young fans are full of enthusiasm and the older fans are keeping it sort of... discreet. I don't know how to describe it, because all M fans are full of enthusiasm. Well I guess the older fans are having their M discussions elsewhere, because neither I do think the IRC-Galleria is the best place to share knowledge and enthusiasm. There are much better sites to talk about Madonna than a web-page that is not completely devoted to Madonna. ( This texts also in my blog on http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com )

When Madonna performed in Helsinki on August 2009, I had many discussions with her fans on the spot. I find it interesting that there are different levels among the fans. I remember thinking few years ago that I am the greatest Madonna fan ever in Finland, but unfortunately I still didn't know what I was talking about. I still don't. No one does. People qualify the word "fan" in different ways. On Icon Madonna site someone listed the features the most addicted Madonna should have: - You must have the standard, deluxe, vinyl, double vinyl, mexian promo dj only import etc of any new record, single or release - People ring you when Walmart has red wool/string on sale (Kabbalah-thing) - When you walk into 2nd hand record shops, the owner automatically knows to show you all the new Madonna arrivals - Your whole "coming out to your family dinner", was synchronized to M's best ballads, starting with "You'll See", "Live To Tell" and ending with "Gone" - We hate Sandra Bernhard, Sean Penn, Guy Ritchie, Warren Beatty & Christopher Ciccone, but we love Gwyneth Paltrow, Rosie O'Donnell, Liz Smith and Stella McCartne - You end very sms, email & letter with "Love & Light" or, " )I( " - You sit up in bed and argue with your boyfriend as to why (your queen) Madonna is soooo much better than (his queen) Janet - No one in your family appreciates their "Raising Malawi" sponsorship gift certificate in their Christmas Stockings - You thought "Who's That Girl" was a classic, "Swept Away" was all Guy's fault and "TNBT" was really good (LOL!!!) - You want to father your f@g hags child, just so you can call it Madonna, Rocco or Lourdes and have "Like a Prayer" playing at the Baptism I cut some listings off, because I thought it was too long and I don't want people to get tired with it. However, the list sounds like a disease to me! I guess I am not even half infected... I have made a list from A to G on how people (=my friends) should act when I go to see Madonna concert or see something M related (such as her handprints in London). I want to share the list, because I know it makes people laugh, but actually I am serious with it. I know may look funny as I spend hours sitting on someone's handprints or walking back and forth in front of a random gym. Here we go: A) No extra talk in needed - one should choose her/his words strictly, I need my own space - one should not come too close, C) I need time, D) one shouldn't touch anything without my permission, E) one shouldn't ask to move to another place, F) one shouldn't take pictures of the target without my permission, G) one shouldn't comment my moves/what I do/how I act on the spot. There is one person who has followed my orders without failing and that is my best friend. My boyfriend is always rushing from one place to another... He doesn't get that spending-time-in-front-of-a-gym-in-London thing as we could be doing something cooler... I get that point too, but... Anyway, now when I look myself back in the time I can wonder there were people who thought "she doesn't know what she's talking about" or "she still hasn't reached this/that level". I got this feeling in Helsinki that I know something that someone doesn't. I guess someone judges me now as an egoist, but this is just my opinion and feeling. I was not saying that I am high and respect me... I know it is hard to begin to idolize and admire someone/something deeply, because people don't take you seriously. I am the admin of a Madonna group on a Finnish Facebook-like site called IRC-Galleria. There are over 1000 people in the group and surprisingly the youngest members (from 13 to 15 years) are keeping the discussions rolling. There was a small fight about why people don't take the young fans seriously. I don't know whether to be for or against. I guess I am not either. I understand the both views. Young fans are full of enthusiasm and the older fans are keeping it sort of... discreet. I don't know how to describe it, because all M fans are full of enthusiasm. Well I guess the older fans are having their M discussions elsewhere, because neither I do think the IRC-Galleria is the best place to share knowledge and enthusiasm. There are much better sites to talk about Madonna than a web-page that is not completely devoted to Madonna. (See this texts also in my blog on http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com )

People react to my addiction in different ways. Some people reacts to my passion as if it was something evil: wasting money and time and not doing anything really essential (e.g. learn to make good food). I guess I have some simple and deeper reasons to my addictions. Recently I have begun to consider the effect of my parent's divorce: the love I got from my parent's got weaker as they were putting all their energy to mourning and my father's love to me begun to fade little by little. I wonder why fathers seem to become so helpless after a divorce that they don't keep much contact with their children. Anyway, some love was missing and I needed something strong and permanent. It was the year of 1997 when my parents got divorced and 1998 when I discovered Madonna. It took a year to figure out that she was (is) something special and magnificent. In 1999 I was her girl and still am. She has given me love when I needed it the most and less when I didn't. That sounds like a religion again: some people get their extra support from God, some get it from Madonna. Am I wrong? I feel sad when people take my addiction as something useless and not essential. I think Madonna is extremely essential for my mental life. Some people get happy by making good food, some people feel great by listening/buying/experiencing Madonna. My passion may not be as conductive and useful as some serious life-skills, but I am sure that Madonna has learnt me many lessons about life and myself. She has also got me singing, more artistic, open-minded and happy. What an egocentric passion, isn't it?! You can share your very nice handmade meal with others, but my passion can't be divided. I mean, actually it doesn't go like that, because my friends and acquaintances get much of happiness and energy through my passion. I remember them feeling true happiness when I was the first one on line in Madonna's Helsinki concert, took part in a TV program to compete about Madonna, won any competition about M, did anything wicked and funny Madonna related. The result is that my addiction can be divided just like any other "essential" passion. I have recorded now five Madonna songs (American Life, Like A Virgin, Don't Tell Me, Live To Tell and You'll See) and I'm very excited about them! I would LOVE to publish them on the internet for curiosity. It's bizarre how much I think about the result when recording. I have thought using whether Madonna's or my singing style. In the other hand, I would like to re-invent the songs in my style, but then again, I would like to do it like Madonna does. Nevertheless, it's truly hard to step into Madonna's boots as they are deeper than any other's. I chose to put my own tune into the songs and not to copy her in an unsuccessful way. However, no matter I make my own tune, I want to sound little madonnalicious. Who wouldn't? (This text can be found also in http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com/ )

I had to put the Celebration video shooting aside as I realised that I can actually record some Madonna covers on my iMac. I have some instrumental versions. I guess my neighbors will blackmail me when they get tired with my singing sessions... I have to admit that I didn't sound as cool as I had thought with the rap part of American Life. I had always thought that it would be just my thing, but I didn't sound convincing. Is it because I don't have "three nannies, an assistant, a driver and a jet, a trainer and a butler, a bodyguard or five" as the song goes? I make covers only on the original songs, I don't accept karaoke versions or such, because it would sound too naive. I wish I could put my covers on the internet (http://drownedworld.skyrock.com), but I guess I don't have the right to publish them. I'll just have to burn a few copies to friends. I got the Celebration cd + dvd from Amazon! Yesterday I also received the Sticky & Sweet tour book 2009 and official calendar (2009)! Something funny happened on the day the Celebration cd was published in Finland! I went to the department store called Stockmann and if you bought the cd from that place you had also got the Celebration poster. As I had ordered my copy from Amazon, I didn't want to buy it from Stockmann to just get the poster. I gave the salesman a self-confident gaze and opened my mouth. After discussing for 5min about why should I get the poster for free and without buying the cd, he gave the poster to me saying "let's keep it secret". I was so happy. The salesman made my day. Not only because he gave the poster, but he also promised to give the Celebration t-shirt he was wearing. Unbelievable! There is a Madonna competition on the tv channel MTV3 where you can win a Celebration (special edition) and all Madonna albums, dvd's etc. The special edition is not available on any store all over the world. It is only available on competitions/special cases. Anyway, I took part to the competition and won the Celebration album (no matter I have it already!). We'll see if I win also the special one and all the other albums, books and dvd's (that I have already). Funny! Just can't wait! (You can find my thoughts about M on my blog in http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com/)

I have never really been into Evita. I have watched the movie for twice, but it has never impressed me even though people speak about its grandeur. I think it's Madonna's best movie and her singing voice is soft and clean, but the film doesn't touch me that much. Nevertheless, yesterday I was listening to Madonna Goom radio on the internet (I discovered the radio for one week ago - it's like made for me!) and they played I'd Be Surprisingly Good for You from Evita soundtrack. I had to stop all I was doing and listen to it carefully. Her singing talent has increased a lot during Evita. That is the time she was constantly taking singing lessons. If you compare Erotica and Ray Of Light by her voice's aspect, you know perhaps what I'm talking about. I love I'd Be Surprisingly Good for You, You Must Love Me and Lament. I mean, on this week I will be listening to Evita more than ever. Madonna surprises me all the time. I discover herself more and more... People ask me that am I ever getting tired with listening to her music. Usually those people haven't even seen the cover of Bedtime Stories or Erotica album and aren't at all aware of how much music Madonna has recorded... Her music has sold over 200 million copies worldwide. Madonna's music varies album after another: there are sounds for all kinds of feelings: provocative, soft, horny, disco, religious,happy, mysterious, encouraging, teaching... There have been times when I have stopped listening to Madonna for a while. Those moments have taken place usually when I have figured out a new artist such as Lady GaGa or Duffy. I love making videos on iMac. I got quite enthusiastic with Madonna's Celebration video with all the fans dancing and dressed as M. I love the way M fans get enhustiasted when something like this happens (a new M competition, music video and so on). In Celebration video there is a fan licking a picture of Madonna, a fan carrying a huge cross and "even" men dressed as Madonna. I still haven't found any straight M superfan... Anyway, I really like the video, because of the atmosphere. Those fans are so crazy for her. I want to make a similar video. I'm planning how I should realise it. Why the most Madonna's male fans are gay? I think it is simply because she is so strong and has more guts than many other artist/woman. She is also very feminine and attractive, but then again, at the same time, masculine. I listened a radio interview on this topic that was recorded on 2008 in San Francisco. Madonna made a conclusion: "if they can't have me, they don't want any woman. No man can have sex with anyone but me... and since I don't have that kind of time in my hands... well they are all gay". (you can also find these blog posts form my real blog http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com)

I wonder why talking about Madonna makes me often so narcissistic that I do not want to share any details with other people. I know that sharing is caring, but... One guy just asked me on the internet what are the best Madonna internet pages I know. I felt like something had squeezed my heart. The reason must be that the guy, who by the way "likes" Madonna, would not ever guess how much pain I have put to find my top 5 Madonna sites. I told him few good sites, and few only. I know I can't own Madonna, but sometimes I let people find the answers by themselves so that I would know if they were serious or not. I don't want my knowledge to get wasted with people who don't really care about the answer. For some reason, I never say that face to face with someone who I consider as that kind of person. I guess you know why. The atmosphere is incredible when M's concert is about to begin. One thing I didn't like about Jätkäsaari (The West Harbour - the place where Madonna performed in Helsinki) was the light. I think the concert should have started after the sunset, because the whole show started with an intro that was built on screen. The intro didn't look as magnificent as it did in Paris in 2008 when it was all dark. I have never seen Madonna doing a show in sunlight. I wonder why she didn't wait for the sunset, because the Sticky & Sweet show includes plenty of visual effects built on screen. In Paris the beginning was clear as all light got quickly switched off, but in Helsinki I didn't notice immediately what happened. Madonna has a few juicy merchandise that I have problems with: Hard Candy Special Edition with some candies inside and a Confessions Tour Program with stickers (the picture above). We are discussing on Madonna's official fanclub called Icon about whether to eat the candies or use the stickers or not. On the other hand, I would love to eat all the candies and feel so "sticky and sweet", but then again, I can't, because I collect those items and I don't want the items to be incomplete! I think we have no other choice than buy two copies of HC Special Edition!? I would also love to have one Confessions sticker in my wallet. Unfortunately, the sticker page would look stupid with one missing. I'm already making plans of how my own house would look like. My mother thinks it's unnecessary to save plastic Madonna bags (those I got from tours / collaborations for H&M). She doesn't like to find those among my clothes in the closet. I would like to put the Confessions and Sticky & Sweet plastic bags on my wall one day as well as more cd's and vinyls. The greatest plan I have is to buy a huge Madonna canvas and put it in my living-room. I'm talking about an artistic canvas, not a low-quality one. I would be so happy in my Madonna cave... I can imagine myself sneaking all around kissing the plastic bags wearing a cone bra. How about that?! (you can also find these blog posts form my real blog http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com)

People often come to ask me what will I do when Madonna dies one day. This is a question they are really eager to hear. Something that has never been asked from her: the trickiest question, the one that pushes the trigger. I felt confused the first time I heard this question: is SHE technically going to die one day? Isn't she immortal? I couldn't answer the question, because I hadn't yet thought about it. Now I can tell that icons aren't actually going to die ever, which is the only true answer one can expect from a true fan. Madonna has grown herself long and powerful roots that have dug deep in the Earth. That is why M isn't going to be washed away. I get a chance to see her performing live for two hours in two years and I never want to miss those chances. They are extremely important to me. The concerts are moments when I can experience my life in flesh for only two hours. The moments are as holy as going to church is for someone, except you can go to church whenever you want - it's not up to the church. My church isn't open as often as I would like to. My religion is limited. Fans call their idols gods. I really don't believe in God. He/She is too surreal and difficult to handle. Anyway, I go to church a lot, which is about twice a month, because my friends hang out there. We are able to spend time together in a lot of young people's camps that the church organizes. Isn't that ironic that I go approximately two times per month to the church without actually believing in Him? I have started to think about that even if I live after God's will and still don't believe in The Thing, does it really make me a bad person? I guess it does as I refuse to believe in God. However, I believe in Madonna. She is a true goddess to me. I feel like the concerts are what Mecca gathering is to Islamic people. I believe that we all have the same God after all and we are just analyzing His/Her will differently. Madonna has made me different person compared to what I would be without her. I consider myself as a strong person even if other people tell me every now and then that they find me shy and withdrawn. It's amazing how she makes me smile again with her music when I'm feeling down. I remember having been super sad and then listening Hung Up. It takes about five minutes to make me self-confident again. What would I tell Maddy if I met her? Thank you. Those two words are reloaded with way too much of feel. I wonder if she knows how grateful her fans are. I wonder if I know how grateful she is to us. (you can also find these blog posts form my real blog http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com)

I'm thrilled, because I have ordered unordinarely much of Madonna stuff! Sometimes I feel true needto buy M stuff, 'cause it makes me feel good. I have ordered a Celebration Maxi-single, Jump single, Music promo cd (11 tracks), Give it 2 me-top, M is my homegirl-cap, Confessions poster, Celebration cd+dvd, S&S tour book, 2009 official calendar and Sticky&Sweet book by Guy! I feel happy. They say material doesn't make people happy, but Madonna stuff really does... Money itself doesn't make happiness, IT'S THE MATERIAL! I often think about how I feel so relieved after having received Madonna items. It feels like I had donated money for a good cause. If we think about the circulation of money, the money goes first to Live Nation (or similar), then Madonna, M's needs and expences. Maybe she will finally donate my money for some good purpose: to Raising Malawi, AIDS, climate change... I am kind of donating coins through Madonna. How weird is that? I let Madonna decide a good destination for money for me. I wish I wouldn't be financing her and Jesus Luz's honeymoon trips, but I guess I am. I also find it interesting that I am aware of myself being a part of this huge business called Madonna.She is the poison flower and we silly fans have become addicted to that poison. I know how hard it is to my mother to understand why I need copies of the same cd. Let's take American Life. I bought the normal version of it on the 24th April 2004. After that I bought also the limited one. I have from 3 to 4 different versions of Confessions On A Dancefloor. Each one of them made me feel satisfied. Last week my mother was more or less angry about the Celebration hit collection cd. The cd collection includes songs that I have already heard and have them on my collection. But it is not the same thing. This was also a difficult thing for my boyfriend to understand. Guess what I am doing with all those comments? I am laughing. I am having fun with my collection. I think it's hilarious to buy the Celebration collection no matter I have the songs on original albums, singles, maxi singles etc... It makes me feel like a real, special fan that is hard to find. Madonna fans are rare, unique. Every sort of fan is unique no matter who or what they admire. We M fans have a own kind of society. When being at a Madonna concert, I feel a strong feeling of togetherness. Like Madonna once said in a concert in Amsterdam: "we are one, don't forget it". That makes me think about the Madonna being a center of business-idea again. She makes sure we are religiously addicted to her. Am I getting crazy? Now I have counted my Madonna audio stuff together and they are 114! It's a celebration! How could I describe this feeling? I win. It doesn't really make me feel down if someone questions my addiction. It's just unfriendly to comment my passion negatively trying to make me feel unarmed. I comment the unnecessary notes always with a simple light sentence not to excite them. It's very stupid to come say to me "Madonna is an old unrespectful woman. Her music and existency means nothing to me. She should die away" I can't believe that even my dearest friends have said that in front of my face. I have to admit that in that situation I may feel unarmed as it comes from my friend's mouth. (you can also find these blog posts form my real blog http://madonna-addicted.blogspot.com)

I tried to make a list of my collection, but I think there's still some missing... Always is! Albums Madonna Like A Virgin True Blue Like A Prayer Erotica Bedtime Stories Ray Of Light Music American Life Confessions On A Dancefloor Hard Candy Soundtrack's and collections You Can Dance Who's That Girl I'm Breathless Immaculate Collection Evita Something To Remember GHV2 Remixed & Revisited Special/Limited Editions The Blonde Ambition Tour Music American Life Confessions On A Dancefloor I'm Going To Tell You A Secret Confessions Tour Hard Candy EP's and Minialbums Virgin Voices Remixed Prayers En Vogue Ultra Rare Trax Rain The World Is My Playground Special DJ Remixes American Life Showcase Paris Maximum Madonna X 3 Cd-singles Like A Virgin This Used To Be My Playground La Isla Bonita Oh Father Keep It Together Erotica (from SEX) Bedtime Story Rain Fever You Must Love Me Another Suitcase In Another Hall Nothing Really Matters The Power Of Good-Bye Drowned World/Substitute For Love Ray Of Light Beautiful Stranger Music Don't Tell Me American Pie What It Feels Like For A Girl American Life Love Profusion Jump Hung Up Sorry Maxi-singles Vogue Erotica Justify My Love Rescue Me Take A Bow Human Nature Bad Girl Secret Deeper & Deeper You'll See Music (promo) Die Another Day Hollywood Nothing Fails Celebration Vinyls and LPs Madonna Into The Groove Like A Virgin Live To Tell Crazy For You The Look Of Love Causing A Commotion Papa Don't Preach Who's That Girl Vinyl + LP Like A Virgin Open Your Heart X 2 True Blue La Isla Bonita Express Yourself Like A Prayer Justify My Love I'm Breathless Immaculate Collection Frozen Drowned World/Substitute For Love American Life Hollywood Get Together Sorry Hung Up Confessions Remixed Jump Give It 2 Me 4 Minutes Miles Away Casettes Madonna I'm Breathless Immaculate Collection Music DVDs Desperately Seeking Susan Who's That Girl Ciao Italia! Dick Tracy The Girlie Show - Live Down Under Video Collection: Immaculate Collection + Madonna '93-'99 In Bed With Madonna Evita Music Drowned World Tour 2001 Swept Away Sex Bomb I'm Going To Tell You A Secret The Confessions Tour Tourbooks Blonde Ambition Drowned World Re-Invention Confessions Sticky & Sweet 2008 Books Like A Virgin (the "wannabe tourbook" one) Confessions by Guy Oseary Life With My Sister Madonna Madonna Talking Madonna - Omin Sanoin Madonna - Onnen Tähti Madonna by Lucy Brian Madonna Nude 1979 Madonna On Stage Madonna Style Madonna by Jordi Bianciotto Icon de la pop SEX Madonna by Christopher Andersen Magazines Madonna Instant Mag 1 & 2 Madonna Dancing Queen The Style Book X 2 + much more... ELLE, Vogue etc...