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  1. butch1977

    Madonna App STILL WACK

    By butch1977,

    So I just went opened the Madonna app. I hadn't even been on for 5 minutes and it crashed. Lol at least in didn't freeze up my phone like it's done before. I think I'm gonna stick to icon. Madonna was amazeballs at the grammys. The rest of the show was sh*t. The director of the show must be fired for mediocre camera work. With those bad skills he should join the other incompetent workers that madonna unfortunately has on her team. Beyonce is so damn overrated. Not to mention she can't sing. The only cool thing she's done was falling down the stairs. The grammys use to be a special deal. Now it is a joke and after Madonna I put on amish haunting!!
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    Madonna App Update

    By butch1977,

    Well, the app is still wack. There has been a some changes, However it still crashes and I the same thing happens. I've uninstalled it a few times to see if downloading it again and it might work. Well that didn't help. However, time is ticking and it's getting closer to the new album. #fixthemadonnaapp Really this is not a good look.
  4. butch1977
    So Here's a quick update on the madonna app. It still crashes and does not work. I looked up mobileroadie instagram page, and remind you, they are in charge of the madonna app. I believe it has 6 posts, 36 followers and is following 4. Really, Well I'm not surprised, but come on now.
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    MASKS!

    By butch1977,

    Dear blog, well now it is required by the law that in California you must wear a mask! There will be a $1000 fine if you aren't wearing a mask. It's unreal, 2 weeks ago my dog died and then last week my cousin died. It's been rough, on April 9 it marks the 20 year anniversary of  EXPLICIT getting raped. I've blogged about it before so no need to bring up shitty things. #survivor So it's been emotional like I'm sure everyone  is having a difficult time. 
    I went to Stater bros to do some grocery shopping and i wore a bandana as a mask.  Tjis is the twilight zone!
    Be safe everyone. 
  6. butch1977

    MASKS!

    By butch1977,

    Dear blog, well now it is required by the law that in California you must wear a mask! There will be a $1000 fine if you aren't wearing a mask. It's unreal, 2 weeks ago my dog died and then last week my cousin died. It's been rough, on April 9 it marks the 20 year anniversary of  EXPLICIT getting raped. I've blogged about it before so no need to bring up shitty things. #survivor So it's been emotional like I'm sure everyone  is having a difficult time. 
    I went to Stater bros to do some grocery shopping and i wore a bandana as a mask.  Tjis is the twilight zone!
    Be safe everyone. 
  9. butch1977

    Music

    By butch1977,


    music
    it's after 4  am . I'm trying to not let my mind think about what I don't want it to. It worries me. I've been having this really negative feeling it. It seems like a new kind of low 
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    My Lyrics

    By butch1977,


    Lyrics
    Hello to anyone who reads my blogs, I really don't think anyone does but I do this for myself and to document things as best as I can. I've always blogged here at madonna.com and I've blogged about my personal life and just about everything else that's on my mind at the time. On spotify I recently got verified so I can add and edit all my lyrics, I will even be able to sync them with the music. It is more complicated than you think, you cannot simply copy and paste. Ive uploaded lots of my lyrics but I have to do some editing because some are not proper. Numbers need to be written out, each line of the song needs to be written out. Putting repeat lyrics isn't the correct way so I don't want to look stupid. But it is going to take some time. It's not something that can be done in one night. I have over 25 songs that have officially been released. I wrote and composed them all. I had a friend who helped with mixing and the production. He contributed alot to the building of the songs, but all the lyrics came from me. Previously the lyrics had my friends name as a writer, but that wasn't the case, I'm totally for sharing credit of my songs with him , but the song writer credit, isn't one to be shared because he didn't put any input lyrically to any of the songs. So I keep shit real and having my name as sole songwriter was and is the only way I'm going to do it. I am also listed as lead vocals and that the piano is played by me. My legal name is now down and states Sonic Pressure as my stage name. So almost all my songs have lyrics , Ranch and Flameburger still need to be added. But the sync will take some time, so you won't be able to sing along with the lyrics just yet. But you can read all the lyrics so on songs where u aren't quite sure what was sang the lyrics are available!
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    My Music

    By butch1977,


    Mood
    Happy Friday it's already and it's going to be September 11th soon September 11th the tragedy so the other day on Wednesday I was working on my album/EP and at one point I had a mini meltdown but I got it under control but it's pretty cool how my friend/ producer knows all he knows  about music s***  He has this software witn all kinds of music I don't know what it's called but samples of s*** like that you know what I mean but he knows and he gave me homework. Since I've been teaching myself the piano and that I don't play in time and he's said I should get a metronome app well I got a real metronome! Its way better than a electronic shit and you can see it. It's pretty cool and it has helped me with keeping time timing. When I do put out my  album out it's going to be at the top of the charts.
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    New Year New Me

    By butch1977,


    music
    So It's a new year and it doesn't really feel like a new me. On New Years Eve, my 5th EP Unhappy was released. I finished the project. It was quite an experience. The Happy Hokey EP and Unhappy EP were considered albums. They both had more than 5 songs on them and I think that has something to do with it. There were about 4 new songs that were added to Unhappy but they weren't technically added to Unhappy, There is gonna be a 6th EP. It will most likely be like the epilogue to the story. I also want to release the sad demos of Friends and Love Is. Both of these alternate versions have added lines that weren't used in the other versions and it gives them this really sad truth that the album versions don't have. The sad demo of Love Is, is sang in a way that flows in a more emotional sound, also I recorded it after having some kind of crying episode so it's very raw, it's beautifully sad. It's pretty deep and the 'yes dad' sounds sad yet sweet.
  13. butch1977

    New Year Unhappy Me

    By butch1977,


    Life
    I have alot on my mind tonight. It's so annoying. First I just need to mention Christmas Eve, It was a couple days before Christmas and my sister tells me that her daughter was speaking to ex friends daughter, and she was talking about christmas eve with my family and how she already had her outfit picked out. So I tried my best to stay calm but i was having some major anxiety. I hadn't seen or spoke to my 'soul sister' and the last message I got from her was very passive aggressive text after I invited her daughter to see Madonna. I called it the day before that her husband my former friend and ' 'producer' wouldn't have the balls to show up. He really is an arrogant prick. So when I saw my 'friend' I said hi and then I burst into tears like a ***CENSORED***. She hugged me and said that she loved me, she also said she was going to text me for sure. (for the record, she hasn't) This whole situation never even needed to happen.  Later that evening, i got a text from my 'former producer' and I have no interest in anything he has to say. He has shown his true colors and I have lost all respect for him, I see him as a spineless ***CENSORED*** who only cares about himself. He has proved that by his actions which contradicted everything he said. Before we had talked about not letting grown up people drama get before the kids. It's like really dude you talked all this shit about being mature and acting like he was a good person. Ever since I found out that he gave himself the writer credit on not one of my songs, not two or three but at that time I had over 20 songs. Also don't forget that I helped build his ***CENSORED*** studio. Anyways, both of them had a pretty good friend in me and they will feel like really morons eventually, they both probably already do but they are too selfish to own it.
    In other news, I went live on onlyfans the other day I went live, I've went live a bunch of times, one of them was deleted because I was talking about jolly rancher candy. Lmao, I'm pretty sure there is no other onlyfan page like mine. Who else goes live and spends alot of time searching for a lighter! lmao Also nobody has ever watched the lives anyways, so when there was somebody watching I didn't know how to handle it really. I've exchanged messages with that person lots of times, but the live had me feeling very shy and I felt really awkward, also my vision is so bad that reading the chat I'm like I can't read it, it's blurry lol First off, let me say again onlyfans doesn't help if the content you create is music. They have no music player on the site, It doesn't even list the songs name it is a generic box and it has the time length. My page is free first and foremost and like I said in the beginning, I created my onlyfans page because I wanted to like Right Cheek from Little Women Atlanta, not because I wanted to make smut videos. Also besides being dull and boring the rules on onlyfans is very strict, certain words aren't allowed. 
     
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    Not another Grinder story.

    By butch1977,


    grinder bozos
    The day started with me putting up birthday decorations for my nephew's birthday. Well I never really hesitate about writing my blog here at Icon and that has never happened. But like Madonna taught me to express myself. So that I've already talked about how toxic grinder is and how it's not good for my mental health. But that my last blog was about some guy from grinder now my next blog is about a guy from grinder. So before I even continue I'm going get things straight. There were never any nudes exchanged and there was never any sex talk. In text messages my receipts would show that x rated pics were sent. We never spoke on the phone, I've talked about how much I hate talking on the phone I always have. Talking on the phone has always been something that gives me anxiety so the only reason I answered my phone this afternoon was because I had just renewed my medical marijuana at nuggmd, and I was expecting a call from the doctor so I answered the phone and I say hello, It wasn't the doctor but it was some voice I'd never heard before asking if I could give him a ride home from work. I said, "Who is this" and he said "it's J****" So I was really caught off guard and I said oh ok and explained to him that it was my nephew's birthday and we were gonna to sing happy birthday and have cake. I asked him to text me in about a half hour. After I got off the phone I was thinking 'wtf' and I see that while I was on the phone I missed the call from the doctor and he left a voicemail. Then I was informed by my niece that it was silly string time! Silly string at birthday parties is something we take seriously. My nephew turned 22. The day he was born was always a memorable day at the time. Those were the days when I lived with my bestie and my former producer who i called 'bugs bunny' We called ourselves the terrible trio. But that night after we went and visited my sister in the hospital and saw the new baby! That night I was driving and afterwards we were going to get a Christmas tree at target. I had this big white Chrysler New Yorker! I remember I hit the curb in the parking lot and it made a loud sound. Lol But the tree didn't fall off and it was always a good memory. So after the cake I see I have a message. It was the grinder dude asking me about still needing a ride home. I was like wtf, so I also had ordered from Vons and needed to go pick it up. So then the toiletpaper incident happend. I'm not going to discuss the details but my mom and I got into over toiletpaper. So i was like really. this didn't need to happen so I'm headed out to vons and I get a text message and i know the way to vons I'd have to drive down a certain road so I said I could give him a ride home. There was no previous wierd shit, I know that he had been in prison I don't know the details but i didn't want to judge him cuz that would have not have been cool. So I say to him ok, tell me which way to turn. So I go left and he asked if I had a phone charger and I took mine out and let him charge his phone. He asks if I could pull over so he could reach someone from his house who could open the gate, It was very uncomfortable and this 'big family' of his and nobody was responding to him, so after about 30 minutes I decided to go pick up the order from Vons and hopefully go drop this guy off cuz i was getting the creeps. So it's almost like 7 pm and it's dark and the creep factor was unreal. I said I need to get home so i'm gonna take you to your home. So i'm heading out and he tells me to turn left on a street was coming up. So I turn down this road and then I just felt sick, it was a ***CENSORED*** dead end street and I was like wtf this is bad. He's just sitting there and keeps looking at his phone and not saying anything. I wanted him out of my car I said what is this as calmly as I could because i was scared of this guy going off. I was too scared to do it but I wanted to just physically throw him out the car but the fear i was feeling was real. He's sitting there smirking and not saying anything. So I pulled into a liquor store where people were around it it was lit up. I said "You're ride ends here" and told him to get out of the car. As he was getting out of the car he was mumbling something but i couldn't make it out. I was so glad he just got out and left. It was so strange. I just wanted to be at home. to 
     
    to be continued 
    i'll finish this tomorrow
  15. butch1977

    Not Deja Vu

    By butch1977,


    Celebrations tour
    Ok so first thing's first I got the email from ticketmaster today. So since from the beginning ticketmaster fucked up and I was only able to get one ticket. Then there was the anxiety of going alone to the show and the flood of emotions that have been going on. Then on my birthday june 24, I don't think Madonna thought she was gonna end up in the hospital. Going to the hospital sux. Thank goodness Madonna is still with us. My producer who I went with to rebel heart, and his brother to see Madame X and her mother to see confessions opening night. It was their daughters birthday yesterday. I have videos of her when she was just just a little girl and listening to Madonna on head phones but in the video she, In such excitement she says "I'm Blasting Madonna!" she turned 14 So it became clear that her birthday gift will be seeing Madonna's Celebration Tour. So that is what I'm planning to do. To all the Iconers who are now in the midst of dealing with ticketmaster drama. I hope and with the best for all and sending love to Madonna! 
  16. butch1977

    November

    By butch1977,


    Mood
    happy Halloween
    so it's now November 1st and Halloween was yesterday it was decent but I was severely sad and its eally starting to be an issue.
    and I having anxiety and these controllable meltdowns or just little things and then I will blubbering mess and it's like I can't pull it together it's it's f****** awful and the feeling of how awful end just like it's a nightmare that's how it is that scared feeling it's it's and it's been getting worse it hasn't been getting better at all and play album was I think I had mentioned that the perp my producer said it would be out by 9 or before Halloween and of well it's Halloween was yesterday and my time in the studio this last week was early too have a longer time to get do more however by the time was cut short because my producer had a appointment for getting a haircut I'm not shiting you and then there was a little talk about it but it's not really important if it was like moving a house in like physical labor not the one to come to but really in getting more disappointed in my supposed best friends I think whenever I'm writing a Blog on here I'm talking about how sad I am and it's but it's getting worse and worse and it's okay I was going to stop beating around the bush if someone says or talks about suicide you one of the things listed in the what you should do is for support to the person who's feeling like that one of them was to Safe safer going to do something and and do it actually do it keep commitments and s*** like that and it also has versus its to be taking taken seriously majorly and if you would it's gotten to the point to where you have been to this more than once like a shitload and getting a little more more knowledge about it and get sentence respond response that is if it's not supportive especially when you say you're going to do something for his and then did it doesn't happen but the social media shows that all of this other stuff is big oh taken care of and addressed and album artwork that I created and this is what I got out of the hospital last year I saw that it was it was you some of it was used but it look like it had been edited somehow is that just rubs me the wrong way and I think it that's like a shity thing to do cuz I don't know about you but a friend shouldn't well sirens there was some Sirens just going by and I thought I was recording this video but I'm writing a Blog what I'm speaking into the of tablet because if I was busy it would be really hard to be typing all of this but to sum it all up I think a response a few weeks ago with is it this weekend we'll talk about the subject of pills and then when that happens it's it's not even mentioned again so I'm trying to. Put as he was identity out there but I remember also blocking about my friends who had really hurt my feelings this is the same friend if there is just Ben selfish behavior on the other part again and again and it's not cool and especially with how the difficult things have been and I'm not I don't want anyone's sympathy but I might just likes some understanding be because friends or anyone basically says it fits they talk about suicide that it's serious and it's not it's not something that's supposed to be I just have really gotten sick of like that total it's very sad and of it's really sad that you can that best friends that you would deduct do it anything for because just because but they will give you the same date when you have someone who if they say they're going to do it and is always there and does it 2 I've seen probably way too much that bye best friends when it when it comes down to it they're more concerned with themselves and that's a pretty selfish it's especially when just laziness on the other part I just took a huge bong rip Police telephone that's another thing why using the speaker on this s*** because it's typing on the phone cats like whoa It's takes even longer so except some of the things that it's it doesn't allow to forward f*** it has the little like simple do you know what I'm saying but how much do and I lost my train of thought but basically tres just one protect this is that and don't expect to be treated nice. And daididau 8% of people are more concerned with themselves and it's really selfish and it's pretty rude especially with these selfish people aren't getting what they want and then they're like complaining to you about it it's stupid and all these people with goddamn amnesia they say something good don't follow through with it you know what like that previous the topic I was talking about so so anyways that's about all that go to bed it's it's already 3 3 a.m. but this sundowning s*** that's black people only old people had that is he what he's
  17. butch1977

    November 13

    By butch1977,

    I just read that the November 12 show at the Wiltern is being canceled due to production elements. I'm glad that I picked the 13th for my show. I didn't pick opening night in l.a. for my choice. So I'm glad I didn't pick that day now I'll be attending my show but it will now be the opening date in la of the Madame X show. I was at opening night of Confessions in Inglewood and it was the bomb!
    In other history, tonight is the 4 year anniversary of seeing M in Inglewood for the Rebel Heart Tour
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    Online users

    By butch1977,


    Life
    So as of right now, I'm the only user online. There isn't much activity by fans on here these days. I guess everyone is on some damn social media site. There is something strange going on with ig, it says my account was compromised or some bullshit. I wish that i wasn't going to the celebrations tour by myself. I've been to concerts by myself and its not fun. I saw madonna at cochella by myself. i got lost in the parking lots, and searched for my car all night. it sucked.
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    Onlyfans influencer

    By butch1977,


    Mood
    So i just smoked a big fattie i rolled. I never had a problem smoking alone. The lonely feeling is just awful. I can't stand it. I can't handle getting even more sad. I created a onlyfans. Right cheek is on it and i wanted to like her and u could only do so if u had a profile lmao. It's sad cuz right cheek sends me all these nasty messages and they always have a price!! It's sad, i gave her a $3 tip and she said what was she gonna do with 3 dollars, i left this long ass comment on how 3 is a lucky number. I decided I'm going to be an influencer on only fans. Lmfao,
    I'm listening to Garbage, they had a new album come out, i got it on cd and green vinyl. I'm high as a kite.
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    Oregon!

    By butch1977,

    So tomorrow I'm taking a plane to Oregon and im going to see my husband. I'm so excited. I'm trying to remain as calm as I can, with this pandemic bullshit happening. So tomorrow i will be going in an Airport and on a plane and I have to wear a mask. Isn't that bizarre. The fear isn't terrorists anymore!
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    Phone Ban!

    By butch1977,

    So with all social media going crazy over the phone issue. I'm glad that the phones are being banned because all of these bozos with their phones out recording during concerts are annoying. 50 something days till i get to see The Madame X show!
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