I have alot on my mind tonight. It's so annoying. First I just need to mention Christmas Eve, It was a couple days before Christmas and my sister tells me that her daughter was speaking to ex friends daughter, and she was talking about christmas eve with my family and how she already had her outfit picked out. So I tried my best to stay calm but i was having some major anxiety. I hadn't seen or spoke to my 'soul sister' and the last message I got from her was very passive aggressive text after I invited her daughter to see Madonna. I called it the day before that her husband my former friend and ' 'producer' wouldn't have the balls to show up. He really is an arrogant prick. So when I saw my 'friend' I said hi and then I burst into tears like a ***CENSORED***. She hugged me and said that she loved me, she also said she was going to text me for sure. (for the record, she hasn't) This whole situation never even needed to happen.  Later that evening, i got a text from my 'former producer' and I have no interest in anything he has to say. He has shown his true colors and I have lost all respect for him, I see him as a spineless ***CENSORED*** who only cares about himself. He has proved that by his actions which contradicted everything he said. Before we had talked about not letting grown up people drama get before the kids. It's like really dude you talked all this shit about being mature and acting like he was a good person. Ever since I found out that he gave himself the writer credit on not one of my songs, not two or three but at that time I had over 20 songs. Also don't forget that I helped build his ***CENSORED*** studio. Anyways, both of them had a pretty good friend in me and they will feel like really morons eventually, they both probably already do but they are too selfish to own it.

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