Rebby

Madonna, I have also received...some other importend Lessons and Insides...witch I have to know at this moment...to have faith in myself and my destiny... What other Lesson...will God give me... When I'm stronger again...and have true faith in myself... The first...and most importend Lessons from him... The true meaning off love... I don't have to be afraid anymore... My choises have been correct... The second Lessons... The gray aera...off the human problems in the western society. The third Lessons... The potentials that lies within me... The fourth Lessons... The reasons...for the different society... Damn...It looks like a logic pattern (also to tired...to look up...the right word) Do you see now... Why I need some guidence... I have to write it down... So that I can really understand Gods Lessons... But my self-esteem is so low at the moment... That I won't write it down for myself... I need other people at the moment... So I can Tell and Learn Gods Lessons...at the same time... The Western society...has destroyed me deep within... But I Will Come Back...Stronger and Wiser...Than Anybody Could Imagine... Only...This path...is so lonely... I wouldn't wish an other human being...to go through this... Ignorens...is a blessing... Not for all...but they don't have to worry so much... How far are your collega on this path... Britney Spears... Christina Aguilera... These 2 have potentional.. Because of my troubles... I've missed a lot the last couple of years... Britney Spears...with her song 'Toxic'...Her strenght...Her dislike of the way...people could treat others.. At least...this is my interpretation... Britney's songs 'Stronger'...'Overprotected'...'My Perogative'... did she wrote those songs herself... These songs...are also telling my story... Christina Aguilera...I'm not so familiar with her... But her song 'Fighter'...gave me courage...as did 'Can't hold us down' Lady Gaga...has also potentional... But the way she expresse herself...is a little to much for me And there are others...who I think...have the potentials...to see the world...as it really is... And now you are curieus...what songs I prefer from you...except 'live to tell'... 'Like a prayer' was the first number...I heard from you...It became the number between my best friend and I...we learned the lyrics en had to sing it... when we where in the 7e grade of primaire school... The second one..that made an impression...'Frozen'...we heard it a few times on the road...to the national championship of synchronized swimming...I was 14 then... Then...when I began to go out and get wild during the nightlife times of my life... There is no beginning...and no end... You've written or song..so many different kind of lyrics in so many different styles and music tunes... You made music...for every oppertunity... Thank you for that... You deserve and urned your spot... I know your songs...but I have to disappoint you...that I still haven't had the time...to check your public lifestory... So the connection I think and feel between us... Becomes from your songs... What kind off top artist...are you than... You deserve all the credit... As you can see...I'm overwelhemd by all the insides...but have also an extreme interresed in you... Not like most people...I haven't had time to check your background yet... But my interresed in you...is based on our close connection... our intuition...and that we have also simulair ideas... At least...that's what I think... I hope you have soon the time to respond... At least one time please...will you do me the honor... Maybe you agent...manager...social guirdian...or something...wil introduce my tail to you... And sees...that I am I need of help... And that I can become...a important person too... As you probably have noticed... Selfcontrole...is also not my strongest side right now... That will change... I have faith... But I can use a little help... I have no other 'student' around me... I'm all alone... And I have to learn quick...and a lot...despite my knowledge I've learned over the past few years... I have to learn quick...otherwise...I will not make it...because there are so many wonds...and they are so deep... I hope to speak to you soon... Will you do me the honor... Of at least having contact with you...ones in my lifetime... Lovely Greetings from The Netherlands, Rebby

Madonna, What had just happend to me... Why did I receive these Lessons today... Why do you ask attention...for the children in Africa... and didn't you choose another goal.. (sorry...I'm to tired...to look up the right word...yes...I have faith in our connection...but I'm overwelhemd...by the Lessons from God..and the moment...he presents them) What do you believe...and know...about the real reason...of the people in Africa... I received a few lessons...and the reason for Eastern society...after I've been knocked down again today...by the Western society... I began to hate the Western society...so much...that God had to act...and had to show me...the reason for the Western society... How is this possible... That He acts...at the right moment... Or could He have been to late.. Is the balance of Mother Earth...already a lost case... I don't know what to believe anymore... I trust God...and the new received insides.. But is He always right... I'm glad... He listend to me today... I asked Him... to give me time... so I can handle his Lessons... I was afraid... that I had offend him... and he would leave me... But he didn't... And acted only...this evening... Madonna, I'm a new 'student'... With no other students around me... When you have the time... Would you please contact me, at least ones... So I can treaser that moment forever... So that you can comfort me... And tell me only the few importend things I need to know... So that I have truly faith in God...en truly faith in myself...

Madonna, How do you give your lessons to others? This song, was just a wake-up call, 'shines in you' the only real messenge to others. This was your song, your tail. 'Not ready for the fog' Nor am I right now. 'To blind to see te writing on the wall' Damn, I have been blind for so long, I was so stubborn. 'Seen the beauty' As do I, I'm still enjoy life, dispite my many troubles 'Learned my lessons wel' As do I, finally, it took me a long way to get there 'Hope to live to tell story (or something) I have learned' Exact what my intension are in the futher. I have to sleep. I have to rest. I have to eat. I don't care anymore. I'm so interresed in you right now. Yes, I have a very low self-esteem Rationaly, I know what I am worth. Emotionaly, is a very different story. I don't care anymore. To be vulnerabel. I don't care anymore. That I have to show myself 'naked' Sometimes, this is necessary, in order to archieve a higher purpose. What lessons do you have learned? What have you gone through? How do you give your lessons to the people? This song, was just an introduction. How wil you continu, when the society gave you so much undeserved critics? Can we help each other? I intend to became a sort of social worker (don't know the right English word) I have learned a lot off psychiatry. And know a lot off the hard way to get there in practisch. In about 15 Years or so. I have writen a new system te help people with psychic troubles. Could we help each other? Your knowledge, and mine knowledge. Your profession, and mine profession. Could we have a positive and powerfull influenze on each other? So that we can archieve our ultimated goals? Why became I more interresed in you, than I already was. Why was I looking for power woman. Why couldn't I find the videoclip with your fake pointlike boobs. But came I across your videoclip at your confession tour with your number 'live to tell' while you where hanging on Jezus Cross? The first minutes, I watched with disbelieve. How could she do that, this is wrong. But I stayed fixed on the screen. I had to see the end. I could understand immediantly understand the obvious reason, but also the first and second layer beneath it. A hour ago, I could understand the third layer beneath it. And that is why I am confinced, the we have a close connection with each other. I don't understand myself, why I am trying so hard to confince you, that I allow myself, that I completely forget about myself and why I need now, rest and food. Am I now confinced, that I have confinced you. Was this necessary, in order to get contact with you was this necessary, in order that I can relax, and listen to my needs now. I'm not bagging anymore. If you are not confidenced after all this energie en troubke I put in to you. Than I will still be a fan of you. But you have hurt me than, so my loalty towards you becomes smaller. This is not a tread, or emotional blackmail. It's just the truth. I should have faith. Than you will see the connection too. That you know, that you are one of mine 'teachers' I trust you, Madonna I trust God, that in someway, active of passive, our connection and the real meaning will show itself. If it becomes a passive interaction. I have to accept that, and I will Even if I am a bit disappointed, life goes on. I trust you, Madonna That you will make the right choise.

Madonna, You are telling my story as well, at your song 'live to tell' Are we indeed connected to each other, closely connected? I have to controle myself. So I won't shout at you, or the community. That I don't use Capital Letters. If we are truly connected, But maybe have a bit of different character, Than I don't have to explain myself any further to you. You can understand what I am going through. You can understand my actions and choises. Who helped you. To become the beautiful woman you are now. Did you do it all alone. Or did someone help you. If someone helped you. Would you pleace help me? If you did it all on your own. Deeply respect, it must have been very difficult. So difficult, that I ask you again to help me. No one should go through this alone. I hope that you can see. What kind of person I can become. I know my destiny. And it's big. I will help a lot of other people. But first I have to help myself. To heal my wonds. To get confidence again in myself. This is necessary. In order to help other people. Please help me. Now I'm begging. I am confident now. That we are closely connected to each other. Becease 'the tail that we have to tell' sounds almost the same Please help me. I had to sleep and not put 3 hours of my energie in you. But you are worth it. I am worth it. That I do this to myself. But please. Now I need some attention. Or I still wil not survive. And will never tell 'my tail that I have to tell' Please Madonna. Help me. I believe that we are closely connected. I don't want your money. altough I could really use it right now. I don't what your fame. You urned it, not I. My fame will come some day. But I have to be ready. And not be overwelhemd by al the stuff that is necessary in order to be ready. Please Madonna. Help me. I believe that we are closely connected. And have almost the same tail to tell. You in America. I in the Netherlands. Please help me.

I have done things. In my past. To survive. The old-fashioned church. Would not approve 3 things, or choises I have made. Altough God could understand me, and forgave me. I went to the church. Last Sunday, not yesterday, but the sunday before that. It was my first real visite. Not as a tourist. But as a believer. I don't know. Who to trust. There are many connections possible with God. Who has almost the same connection with Him, as I have. I think and feel, That You have almost the same connection with Him, as I have. I ask You for Help, Because I have no one else to turn to with these issues. I get some help from one of my collega. But it's not enough. She doesn't have the answers I'm looking for. She is very wice and has al lot of experience. But not with this. I'm very tired and overloadded. The most simple English words, can I not remember, or I forget to wright it well. Experience, I had to look twice, before I wrote it correctly. Come on. I need rest. I need time to settle again. I have corrected all of my latest mistakes. I have listend to all the lessons God gave me the past view days. But I am to tired now. I need rest. But my connection with God. Is barely 2 weeks old now. I don't know The Bible very well And I am to tired. To read it right now. I don't what to piss of God. But his lessons are too much for me right now I have no else to turn to with these questions. Because I have done things in my past to survive But the old-fashioned church, would not approve of that. Although God could understand my choises, and forgave me. Please help me. I am Strong. and I don't aks for help normally. But I am almost begging You. Please help me. I think and feel, That you could help me. That you are the chosen one. To help me. I have no else. That believes and thinks almost te same way as I do. Please help.

Madonna, How spiritual are you? How strong is your connection with God? Is it true. That everything is in Balance. Is it true. That even God has positive and negative sides? I receive so many lessons from him. It's too much. Too much to handle right now. He's standards and expactations are too high right now. Can I ask Him. To lower his lessons. Will He be mad. And leave me alone again. Or will He respect me more. Because I can see the Balance. The Balance in nature. The Balance in people. The Balance in Him. Please respond to me. I can understand that you have a busy life. But please. I need guidence.

I'm addicted to the youtube clip of you... I replay and replay your performance at the Confession Tour... When you sing 'Live to Tell'... I'm afraid... I want to hold on to you... Cause how will I handle the truth... The truth...that I lost a lot of my close ones... Because they could not understand me...and prefer to listen to society... Please help... I know I grew to be strong...that I can handle this... But there is a diverence between knowing and feeling... I'm 29 years old...and I've been trough a lot... It made me stronger and wiser... But also I...need some attention now and than... To feel warm...to feel appriciated...to feel loved... Please...give me some sign you've read my story... Let me know...that there are still people who wants to hear what I have to say... This is why I can't let go of the youtube clip...where Madonna had also 'a tail to tell'... She even used a very powerfull symbol...Jezus cross... What have I to do...to be heared... What have I to do...to get some attention...

I see that several people have read my story... But what I don't understand...is that nobody gave a reaction... My English isn't that good...but I'm sure you can understand what I'm writing... We all love Madonna...and are inspired by her in our own way... I'm strong...just like Madonna and some of you people... But a strong person also needs attention from time to time... I don't know you people...so I will be open-minded... We all have an interest in Madonna...so why not support other fans... I'm strong...but won't bite immediantly All I'm asking...is compassion... We all have our storries...some beautiful...others are heart-breaking... Why not support each other? Why not look at the things that we have incommon...

In order to get over my past...I used strong Proverbs... They gave me the strenght...the currage...in order to continu with my stronger growing selfconsius... The Proverbs (spreuken) will get stronger...and clearer when you go further... These Proverbs...describes my path to selfconsius...during the last 3 weeks... It describe my strengh...the battles...the pain...the losses... But at the end... I'll be so much stronger...and wiser... In the link below...you can find these Proverbs on my facebook...it's a display of my battle to get more selfconsius. .. https://m.facebook.com/rebecca.baltus.37/albums/338224242993875/?_rdr

The next reaction I gave to some friends and as comment by the youtube clip after seeing the performance on the Confession Tour when Madonna is singing 'Live to Tell'... Omg...I can't speak a word... I can only be quit...and listen...really listen... I feel deeply respect... And wonder why she had to use such a strong symbol... When I heard of the performance... I too had an critic opinion... Even during the performance... Untill the end...then everything becomes clear... She urns deeply respect... Especially because so also shows her vulnerability... Below is a link to my Facebook.. This item is so important...that I think that the whole world should read and see it.. Therefore I post it as a Public... https://m.facebook.com/rebecca.baltus.37/albums/351361088346857/

I am also a writer.. I write poetry...in my own languague 'dutch' But I'm afraid... Afraid of my feelings... Afraid for what I would feel...when reality hits me in the face... I've lost contact with so many dear close ones... All because they couldn't understand me...and listen to society who also have a wrong impression... I used to be a troubled girl... I had years of help from proffessionels... But now... I'm strong enough...to stand on my own feet... They cannot understand this... They do not understand the battles... I'm afraid... I'm afraid for what I would feel...when I start writing again...

Thank you...you discribe indeed the reason why Madonna could be an inspiration to all of us...

Hello Madonna, I think I can understand you now and your connection with Britney Spears.. You two are real power woman...and you can also show your vulnerability during the confession tour at your impressive song and performance when you sing 'live to tell'... I think I became a power woman as well...and I hope that one day I have almost the same strengh like yours, but still connected to my emotions. . I don't know your background well enough...so I just reply on a small image I have off you...forgive if I'm wrong...I have to clean up the mess in my life first...get some rest...and than I will do some research on you... What I hope...from you...or the community...is to get some understanding... Maybe you and the community know what I am going trough...and see that I will make it on my own, but need a litttle help from time to time... I see your strengh...and it hugh...I wonder what you have gone through...I wil read your public story in a few days...when my body and health are good enough again...I wonder how you managed to stay connected to your emotions...and still be a warm and lovible person...how do you do that...after life has knocked you down...again... You became my inspiration...I think I can understand you now... You became a real power woman...and you can help me to reach the same... A lovely greeting.. Rebecca Baltus