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  1. Rebby
    Hello Madonna
     
    I don't know how to start after such a long time.
    Things didn't work out as planned.
     
    The unjust in my life.
    I couldn't handle it anymore.
     
    I got some proffesional help for a while.
    But picking up my old life isn't that easy.
     
    There all still the people I've hurt in august.
    Some of them are my friends again (thank god).
    But there are still a few who are silence to me.
     
    I've also lost the spiritual connection, because of the medication I have to take right now and it sucks.
    I'm planning to quit when the time is right again.
    But for now...I have no choise.
     
    I wish I could rewind these past few months and take back the things I've said.
     
    On the upsite...I'm writing poetry again.
    Maybe you have to sink low...to get your inspiration back.
     
    Picking up my old life, while I'm feeling lonely, isn't easy.
    But most of all...I miss the spiritual connection.
    Will that come back, when I quit the medication?
     
    On the bright side...now I can watch the confession tour without having your sex appeal affecting mine.
    And I have the time to read your public story.
     
    I hope everything is alright with you, and that your not overwelhemd by to much work.
     
    Lovely Greetings,
    Rebby
  2. Rebby
    Hello Madonna,
     
    I think I can understand you now and your connection with Britney Spears..
    You two are real power woman...and you can also show your vulnerability during the confession tour at your impressive song and performance when you sing 'live to tell'...
    I think I became a power woman as well...and I hope that one day I have almost the same strengh like yours, but still connected to my emotions.
    .
     
    I don't know your background well enough...so I just reply on a small image I have off you...forgive if I'm wrong...I have to clean up the mess in my life first...get some rest...and than I will do some research on you...
     
    What I hope...from you...or the community...is to get some understanding...
    Maybe you and the community know what I am going trough...and see that I will make it on my own, but need a litttle help from time to time...
     
    I see your strengh...and it hugh...I wonder what you have gone through...I wil read your public story in a few days...when my body and health are good enough again...I wonder how you managed to stay connected to your emotions...and still be a warm and lovible person...how do you do that...after life has knocked you down...again...
     
    You became my inspiration...I think I can understand you now...
    You became a real power woman...and you can help me to reach the same...
     
    A lovely greeting..
    Rebecca Baltus
  3. Rebby

    Madonna's Basic Lesson...

    By Rebby,

    Madonna,
     
    Below are 2 poetries...
    Witch I wrote during my 14 years of struggle...
     
    These 2 are in English instead of Dutch...
    And have a bit of quality...
    And are not...too personal...
     
     
    The call
     
    Is the time there now
    To make this tough decision.
    Knowing that there are
    Two different ends at this mission
     
    Can I take those feelings
    That will come over me?
    And will there also be times
    That I can let it go and feel free?
     
    Should I make the call
    And put the thing in movement?
    Or should I still wait
    And put my feelings in the basement?
     
    06-10-2010
    Rebecca
     
     
    Illusion or Reality
     
    Silence
    No words, no sounds
    No dreams, no hopes
    Just silence
     
    Awkward
    Painful and sadness
    Frightened and empty
    Just awkward
     
    Illusions
    My life, my identity
    My safety, my own
    Just illusions
     
    Reality
    Lightness and darkness
    Goals and mistakes
    Just reality
     
    Goals
    To reach, to achieve
    To give direction and hope
    That are goals
     
    Lightness
    Something to fight for
    Something to earn
    That's lightness
     
    Illusions
    Pretty, but painful
    No change to grow
    Just STUCK in Illusions
     
    Reality
    Hard, but doable
    A change to grow
    And PROUD in Reality
     
    21-05-2010
    Rebecca
     
     
    AS YOU CAN SEE...
     
    THE SPIRITUAL PERSON...
     
    WHO ALREADY KNEW...
     
    HOW THE WORLD REALLY IS...
     
    WAS ALREADY INSIDE ME...
     
     
    MADONNA'S WORDS:
     
    SHINES WITHIN YOU...
     
    REMEMBER THEM...
  4. Rebby
    Madonna,
     
    I have also received...some other importend Lessons and Insides...witch I have to know at this moment...to have faith in myself and my destiny...
     
    What other Lesson...will God give me...
    When I'm stronger again...and have true faith in myself...
     
    The first...and most importend Lessons from him...
     
    The true meaning off love...
     
    I don't have to be afraid anymore...
    My choises have been correct...
     
    The second Lessons...
    The gray aera...off the human problems in the western society.
     
    The third Lessons...
    The potentials that lies within me...
     
    The fourth Lessons...
    The reasons...for the different society...
     
    Damn...It looks like a logic pattern (also to tired...to look up...the right word)
     
    Do you see now...
    Why I need some guidence...
     
    I have to write it down...
    So that I can really understand Gods Lessons...
     
    But my self-esteem is so low at the moment...
    That I won't write it down for myself...
     
    I need other people at the moment...
    So I can Tell and Learn Gods Lessons...at the same time...
     
    The Western society...has destroyed me deep within...
    But I Will Come Back...Stronger and Wiser...Than Anybody Could Imagine...
     
    Only...This path...is so lonely...
    I wouldn't wish an other human being...to go through this...
     
    Ignorens...is a blessing...
    Not for all...but they don't have to worry so much...
     
    How far are your collega on this path...
     
    Britney Spears...
    Christina Aguilera...
     
    These 2 have potentional..
     
    Because of my troubles... I've missed a lot the last couple of years...
     
    Britney Spears...with her song 'Toxic'...Her strenght...Her dislike of the way...people could treat others..
    At least...this is my interpretation...
     
    Britney's songs 'Stronger'...'Overprotected'...'My Perogative'... did she wrote those songs herself...
    These songs...are also telling my story...
     
    Christina Aguilera...I'm not so familiar with her...
    But her song 'Fighter'...gave me courage...as did 'Can't hold us down'
     
    Lady Gaga...has also potentional...
    But the way she expresse herself...is a little to much for me
     
    And there are others...who I think...have the potentials...to see the world...as it really is...
     
    Lovely Greetings from The Netherlands,
    Rebby
  5. Rebby
    Madonna,
     
    How do you give your lessons to others?
     
    This song, was just a wake-up call,
    'shines in you' the only real messenge to others.
     
    This was your song, your tail.
     
    'Not ready for the fog'
    Nor am I right now.
     
    'To blind to see te writing on the wall'
    Damn, I have been blind for so long, I was so stubborn.
     
    'Seen the beauty'
    As do I, I'm still enjoy life, dispite my many troubles
     
    'Learned my lessons wel'
    As do I, finally, it took me a long way to get there
     
    'Hope to live to tell story (or something) I have learned'
    Exact what my intension are in the futher.
     
    I have to sleep.
    I have to rest.
    I have to eat.
     
    I don't care anymore.
    I'm so interresed in you right now.
    Yes, I have a very low self-esteem
     
    Rationaly, I know what I am worth.
    Emotionaly, is a very different story.
     
    I don't care anymore.
    To be vulnerabel.
     
    I don't care anymore.
    That I have to show myself 'naked'
     
    Sometimes, this is necessary, in order to archieve a higher purpose.
     
    What lessons do you have learned?
     
    What have you gone through?
     
    How do you give your lessons to the people?
     
    This song, was just an introduction.
     
    How wil you continu, when the society gave you so much undeserved critics?
     
    Can we help each other?
     
    I intend to became a sort of social worker (don't know the right English word)
     
    I have learned a lot off psychiatry.
    And know a lot off the hard way to get there in practisch.
     
    In about 15 Years or so.
    I have writen a new system te help people with psychic troubles.
     
    Could we help each other?
     
    Your knowledge, and mine knowledge.
    Your profession, and mine profession.
     
    Could we have a positive and powerfull influenze on each other?
     
    So that we can archieve our ultimated goals?
     
    Why became I more interresed in you, than I already was.
     
    Why was I looking for power woman.
     
    Why couldn't I find the videoclip with your fake pointlike boobs.
     
    But came I across your videoclip at your confession tour with your number 'live to tell' while you where hanging on Jezus Cross?
     
    The first minutes, I watched with disbelieve.
    How could she do that, this is wrong.
     
    But I stayed fixed on the screen.
    I had to see the end.
     
    I could understand immediantly understand the obvious reason, but also the first and second layer beneath it.
     
    A hour ago, I could understand the third layer beneath it.
    And that is why I am confinced, the we have a close connection with each other.
  6. Rebby
    Madonna,
     
    A lot has changed...
    These few days...
    As you may have quest...
     
    I've completed the 3rd staged...
    So I'm a bit more relaxed now...
    Contact can be allowed again...
     
    First real visit...
    Back to work again...
    But I'm terrified...
     
    So much has happend...
    I've hurt people...
    Because they have hurt me too...
     
    I have an import talk this week...
    With one of my colleagues...
    She is the most important one...
    Our conversation decites (sorry) my futher at my work...
     
    I know I should have faith...
    But it's difficult...
    I've hurt her...deeply...
    Her own history...is involved...
     
    Can I handle her story...
    Above on all the pain...
    I'm feeling already...
    Will it not...destroy me...
     
    As you can see...
    The 4th is playing right now...
    I'm more relaxed right now...
    Thank God for that...I'm so tired...
     
    A summary of my days...
    Will follow this week...
    But first I've got to face reality...
    The damaged I've done...during my beautiful process...
     
    I hope that I will hear from you soon...
    I hope that you will support me...only this ones...
    You know it's not the money I'm after...
    But I am in real deep shit right now...
     
    Would you please support me on this one...an one time gift...
    I need you right now...
    The distance is to far...
    But there are more other ways to help...you know that...
     
    I'm really looking forward...
    To have real contact with you...
    I think I know...that it will happen one day...
    When the time is finally right...
     
    I have to be pations (sorry,wrongly written)
    I'm learning that already...
    God chooses a very difficult way for me to learn that...
    Yep..my strongest point..and weakest point..my sex-appeal..
     
    So I'm sorry Madonna...
    I can't watch your other videoclip from your confession tour..
    Because of my emotion connection with you right now...
    Your sex-appeal in the videoclip...will affect mine...
     
    Damn...I don't want this side of the connection...
    But it is the balance...
    I have to learn...to close the connection...
    Maybe next week...when my colleague and I...had good talk...
     
    Madonna...
    I will write you...and your fans again...
    But firts...I have to take control...
    Over my disturbed life right now..have to clean things up..
     
    I wish you a good week...
    And hope...that you have also time...to relax...
    I also hope...that you will show you gratitude to me...
    I have influenzed your world..when do I deserve the favour..
     
    Wish you well...
     
    Lovely greeting,
    Rebby
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