Rebby

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Madonna, Below my latest poetry in English. It's about all the people who won't contact me. Powerless I feel powerless What can I say What can I do What can I pray (for) I feel powerless Nothings seems right No matter what I do No matter what I wright I feel powerless Do I have to back away Do I let the silence go on Do I just have to pray I feel powerless The silence do I let that be The silence caught in question marks The silence is killing me I feel powerless Questions about what they want Questions about how they are Questions about our bound. I feel powerless I can not sleep I can not stop wrighting I can't cause it cuts to deep I feel powerless I miss you all I miss our bounds But I'm talking to a wall I feel powerless What can I say What can I do What can I pray (for) Rebecca 17-02-2015

Madonna, Below my latest poetry in English. It's about all the people who won't contact me. Powerless I feel powerless What can I say What can I do What can I pray (for) I feel powerless Nothings seems right No matter what I do No matter what I wright I feel powerless Do I have to back away Do I let the silence go on Do I just have to pray I feel powerless The silence do I let that be The silence caught in question marks The silence is killing me I feel powerless Questions about what they want Questions about how they are Questions about our bound. I feel powerless I can not sleep I can not stop wrighting I can't cause it cuts to deep I feel powerless I miss you all I miss our bounds But I'm talking to a wall I feel powerless What can I say What can I do What can I pray (for) Rebecca 17-02-2015

Hello Madonna I don't know how to start after such a long time. Things didn't work out as planned. The unjust in my life. I couldn't handle it anymore. I got some proffesional help for a while. But picking up my old life isn't that easy. There all still the people I've hurt in august. Some of them are my friends again (thank god). But there are still a few who are silence to me. I've also lost the spiritual connection, because of the medication I have to take right now and it sucks. I'm planning to quit when the time is right again. But for now...I have no choise. I wish I could rewind these past few months and take back the things I've said. On the upsite...I'm writing poetry again. Maybe you have to sink low...to get your inspiration back. Picking up my old life, while I'm feeling lonely, isn't easy. But most of all...I miss the spiritual connection. Will that come back, when I quit the medication? On the bright side...now I can watch the confession tour without having your sex appeal affecting mine. And I have the time to read your public story. I hope everything is alright with you, and that your not overwelhemd by to much work. Lovely Greetings, Rebby

Hello Madonna I don't know how to start after such a long time. Things didn't work out as planned. The unjust in my life. I couldn't handle it anymore. I got some proffesional help for a while. But picking up my old life isn't that easy. There all still the people I've hurt in august. Some of them are my friends again (thank god). But there are still a few who are silence to me. I've also lost the spiritual connection, because of the medication I have to take right now and it sucks. I'm planning to quit when the time is right again. But for now...I have no choise. I wish I could rewind these past few months and take back the things I've said. On the upsite...I'm writing poetry again. Maybe you have to sink low...to get your inspiration back. Picking up my old life, while I'm feeling lonely, isn't easy. But most of all...I miss the spiritual connection. Will that come back, when I quit the medication? On the bright side...now I can watch the confession tour without having your sex appeal affecting mine. And I have the time to read your public story. I hope everything is alright with you, and that your not overwelhemd by to much work. Lovely Greetings, Rebby

Madonna, A lot has changed... These few days... As you may have quest... I've completed the 3rd staged... So I'm a bit more relaxed now... Contact can be allowed again... First real visit... Back to work again... But I'm terrified... So much has happend... I've hurt people... Because they have hurt me too... I have an import talk this week... With one of my colleagues... She is the most important one... Our conversation decites (sorry) my futher at my work... I know I should have faith... But it's difficult... I've hurt her...deeply... Her own history...is involved... Can I handle her story... Above on all the pain... I'm feeling already... Will it not...destroy me... As you can see... The 4th is playing right now... I'm more relaxed right now... Thank God for that...I'm so tired... A summary of my days... Will follow this week... But first I've got to face reality... The damaged I've done...during my beautiful process... I hope that I will hear from you soon... I hope that you will support me...only this ones... You know it's not the money I'm after... But I am in real deep shit right now... Would you please support me on this one...an one time gift... I need you right now... The distance is to far... But there are more other ways to help...you know that... I'm really looking forward... To have real contact with you... I think I know...that it will happen one day... When the time is finally right... I have to be pations (sorry,wrongly written) I'm learning that already... God chooses a very difficult way for me to learn that... Yep..my strongest point..and weakest point..my sex-appeal.. So I'm sorry Madonna... I can't watch your other videoclip from your confession tour.. Because of my emotion connection with you right now... Your sex-appeal in the videoclip...will affect mine... Damn...I don't want this side of the connection... But it is the balance... I have to learn...to close the connection... Maybe next week...when my colleague and I...had good talk... Madonna... I will write you...and your fans again... But firts...I have to take control... Over my disturbed life right now..have to clean things up.. I wish you a good week... And hope...that you have also time...to relax... I also hope...that you will show you gratitude to me... I have influenzed your world..when do I deserve the favour.. Wish you well... Lovely greeting, Rebby

Madonna, A lot has changed... These few days... As you may have quest... I've completed the 3rd staged... So I'm a bit more relaxed now... Contact can be allowed again... First real visit... Back to work again... But I'm terrified... So much has happend... I've hurt people... Because they have hurt me too... I have an import talk this week... With one of my colleagues... She is the most important one... Our conversation decites (sorry) my futher at my work... I know I should have faith... But it's difficult... I've hurt her...deeply... Her own history...is involved... Can I handle her story... Above on all the pain... I'm feeling already... Will it not...destroy me... As you can see... The 4th is playing right now... I'm more relaxed right now... Thank God for that...I'm so tired... A summary of my days... Will follow this week... But first I've got to face reality... The damaged I've done...during my beautiful process... I hope that I will hear from you soon... I hope that you will support me...only this ones... You know it's not the money I'm after... But I am in real deep shit right now... Would you please support me on this one...an one time gift... I need you right now... The distance is to far... But there are more other ways to help...you know that... I'm really looking forward... To have real contact with you... I think I know...that it will happen one day... When the time is finally right... I have to be pations (sorry,wrongly written) I'm learning that already... God chooses a very difficult way for me to learn that... Yep..my strongest point..and weakest point..my sex-appeal.. So I'm sorry Madonna... I can't watch your other videoclip from your confession tour.. Because of my emotion connection with you right now... Your sex-appeal in the videoclip...will affect mine... Damn...I don't want this side of the connection... But it is the balance... I have to learn...to close the connection... Maybe next week...when my colleague and I...had good talk... Madonna... I will write you...and your fans again... But firts...I have to take control... Over my disturbed life right now..have to clean things up.. I wish you a good week... And hope...that you have also time...to relax... I also hope...that you will show you gratitude to me... I have influenzed your world..when do I deserve the favour.. Wish you well... Lovely greeting, Rebby

Madonna, What are you feeling... when you read these messenges... How desperate do you feel... When I follow the wrong conclussion... Why are some messenges of my still public... Although you and your staff... Have good reasons to deleted them... Do you feel that it is nessecery... That your fans can read the progress... How many other ways are there... To become real open again...

Madonna, How do you give your lessons to others? This song, was just a wake-up call, 'shines in you' the only real messenge to others. This was your song, your tail. 'Not ready for the fog' Nor am I right now. 'To blind to see te writing on the wall' Damn, I have been blind for so long, I was so stubborn. 'Seen the beauty' As do I, I'm still enjoy life, dispite my many troubles 'Learned my lessons wel' As do I, finally, it took me a long way to get there 'Hope to live to tell story (or something) I have learned' Exact what my intension are in the futher. I have to sleep. I have to rest. I have to eat. I don't care anymore. I'm so interresed in you right now. Yes, I have a very low self-esteem Rationaly, I know what I am worth. Emotionaly, is a very different story. I don't care anymore. To be vulnerabel. I don't care anymore. That I have to show myself 'naked' Sometimes, this is necessary, in order to archieve a higher purpose. What lessons do you have learned? What have you gone through? How do you give your lessons to the people? This song, was just an introduction. How wil you continu, when the society gave you so much undeserved critics? Can we help each other? I intend to became a sort of social worker (don't know the right English word) I have learned a lot off psychiatry. And know a lot off the hard way to get there in practisch. In about 15 Years or so. I have writen a new system te help people with psychic troubles. Could we help each other? Your knowledge, and mine knowledge. Your profession, and mine profession. Could we have a positive and powerfull influenze on each other? So that we can archieve our ultimated goals? Why became I more interresed in you, than I already was. Why was I looking for power woman. Why couldn't I find the videoclip with your fake pointlike boobs. But came I across your videoclip at your confession tour with your number 'live to tell' while you where hanging on Jezus Cross? The first minutes, I watched with disbelieve. How could she do that, this is wrong. But I stayed fixed on the screen. I had to see the end. I could understand immediantly understand the obvious reason, but also the first and second layer beneath it. A hour ago, I could understand the third layer beneath it. And that is why I am confinced, the we have a close connection with each other.

Madonna, I have also received...some other importend Lessons and Insides...witch I have to know at this moment...to have faith in myself and my destiny... What other Lesson...will God give me... When I'm stronger again...and have true faith in myself... The first...and most importend Lessons from him... The true meaning off love... I don't have to be afraid anymore... My choises have been correct... The second Lessons... The gray aera...off the human problems in the western society. The third Lessons... The potentials that lies within me... The fourth Lessons... The reasons...for the different society... Damn...It looks like a logic pattern (also to tired...to look up...the right word) Do you see now... Why I need some guidence... I have to write it down... So that I can really understand Gods Lessons... But my self-esteem is so low at the moment... That I won't write it down for myself... I need other people at the moment... So I can Tell and Learn Gods Lessons...at the same time... The Western society...has destroyed me deep within... But I Will Come Back...Stronger and Wiser...Than Anybody Could Imagine... Only...This path...is so lonely... I wouldn't wish an other human being...to go through this... Ignorens...is a blessing... Not for all...but they don't have to worry so much... How far are your collega on this path... Britney Spears... Christina Aguilera... These 2 have potentional.. Because of my troubles... I've missed a lot the last couple of years... Britney Spears...with her song 'Toxic'...Her strenght...Her dislike of the way...people could treat others.. At least...this is my interpretation... Britney's songs 'Stronger'...'Overprotected'...'My Perogative'... did she wrote those songs herself... These songs...are also telling my story... Christina Aguilera...I'm not so familiar with her... But her song 'Fighter'...gave me courage...as did 'Can't hold us down' Lady Gaga...has also potentional... But the way she expresse herself...is a little to much for me And there are others...who I think...have the potentials...to see the world...as it really is... Lovely Greetings from The Netherlands, Rebby

Madonna, Below are 2 poetries... Witch I wrote during my 14 years of struggle... These 2 are in English instead of Dutch... And have a bit of quality... And are not...too personal... The call Is the time there now To make this tough decision. Knowing that there are Two different ends at this mission Can I take those feelings That will come over me? And will there also be times That I can let it go and feel free? Should I make the call And put the thing in movement? Or should I still wait And put my feelings in the basement? 06-10-2010 Rebecca Illusion or Reality Silence No words, no sounds No dreams, no hopes Just silence Awkward Painful and sadness Frightened and empty Just awkward Illusions My life, my identity My safety, my own Just illusions Reality Lightness and darkness Goals and mistakes Just reality Goals To reach, to achieve To give direction and hope That are goals Lightness Something to fight for Something to earn That's lightness Illusions Pretty, but painful No change to grow Just STUCK in Illusions Reality Hard, but doable A change to grow And PROUD in Reality 21-05-2010 Rebecca AS YOU CAN SEE... THE SPIRITUAL PERSON... WHO ALREADY KNEW... HOW THE WORLD REALLY IS... WAS ALREADY INSIDE ME... MADONNA'S WORDS: SHINES WITHIN YOU... REMEMBER THEM...

Madonna, I hope you know how I am feeling right now... And I hope... That you will react on it... With love, Rebby

Madonna, Below are 2 poetries... Witch I wrote during my 14 years of struggle... These 2 are in English instead of Dutch... And have a bit of quality... And are not...too personal... The call Is the time there now To make this tough decision. Knowing that there are Two different ends at this mission Can I take those feelings That will come over me? And will there also be times That I can let it go and feel free? Should I make the call And put the thing in movement? Or should I still wait And put my feelings in the basement? 06-10-2010 Rebecca Illusion or Reality Silence No words, no sounds No dreams, no hopes Just silence Awkward Painful and sadness Frightened and empty Just awkward Illusions My life, my identity My safety, my own Just illusions Reality Lightness and darkness Goals and mistakes Just reality Goals To reach, to achieve To give direction and hope That are goals Lightness Something to fight for Something to earn That's lightness Illusions Pretty, but painful No change to grow Just STUCK in Illusions Reality Hard, but doable A change to grow And PROUD in Reality 21-05-2010 Rebecca AS YOU CAN SEE... THE SPIRITUAL PERSON... WHO ALREADY KNEW... HOW THE WORLD REALLY IS... WAS ALREADY INSIDE ME... MADONNA'S WORDS: SHINES WITHIN YOU... REMEMBER THEM...

Madonna, Last post today (or better...tonight) I am controlling myself more... There are still 3 things I want to do or know... But this is my last move for today... When became you a spiritual person... When did you wrote 'live to tell'.. When was your 'Confession Tour'... 2010... Is there some rule... When you can tell the whole world your lessons... Why did I saw... That my big moment... Is over 15 years...

Madonna, I have to wait till monday... Before I can learn... Some protective technique... I'm very open right now... To open maybe... I have to believe in God... And in my intuition... So that it won't go badly... Monday... Will be very important to me... My spiritual colleque... We don't have the connection yet... But or normal band... Is broke right now... To much has happend... The past 6 months... I think I've hurt her somehow... Are that she is afraid of something... I know the world and proffesion field I'm in well enough... That it had something to do with her past... But I have to hold on to monday... And should have full confidence... In God and my intuition...